Adam's coming home today. The family should be reunited again. It seems like it's been weeks since we have. I'm trying to figure out how I should be. Sounds kind of funky. I guess I'm not sure how to be there for him right now? I don't know what words to say.. what things to do.. All I really know is to just be here. And love on him. Sometimes that doesn't seem enough, though. I try to picture myself in his shoes, and I can't. The things he goes through, the obstacles he faces, the people who don't show compassion toward him.. It kills me inside knowing I can't take any of that away. And. I have to watch him tread through it. When you watch someone you love hurt, it puts your life into perspective. Definitely. I don't have any issues when compared with others who struggle just to get by. And yet.. for people like Adam, they never complain. They never pout. They smile. They laugh. They encourage others. And they keep persevering, even when they can't see an end in sight.
It completely humbles me.
I hope people look into my life and see Him like I do when I look at Adam's.
Aside from ^ that thought.
I'm realizing more every day how freaking amazing my family is. I love how tight we're becoming. It's crazy how rough things can bring people together. I find myself wanting to cancel plans with other friends so I can hang out with Arielle or Peter--something I've never even pictured myself doing. It's ridiculous how much fun we have together. On road trips... we laugh and laugh. We call each other when we're having bad days. Dad cracks funny jokes, and we all share the same reactions. (Dad, really?) I don't know. I just love them. And I keep thinking, man. I am blessed. When I put my life in perspective, I see that the hard things don't even compare to the blessings God gives. I'm so in love with life and joy that I don't know how to express it in words. Yeah.. of course some days I struggle to keep this focus. Unfortunately, I do a lot. But the fact is, Jesus doesn't shift like changing shadows. He's the same yesterday, today, and forever. His promises are eternal and trustworthy. And knowing that, I can wake up in the morning with a big grin plastered on my face. He is good.
I think it's about time for Adam to arrive. I should get things a rollin' here at home. I'm excited to spend the evening with the family. Really excited.
Don't forget to remember (< catchy, eh?) that God is strength and God is joy. And sometimes, we just need to be still, and know that He's God.
Ally
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