Prone to Wander....

Although I have nothing particularly in mind to write about, I feel the urge to write. 

It’s been a while since this moment has been presented. I’m thankful for some time to ponder life. It seems almost like the past few months have flown by so rapidly, I haven’t had enough time to grasp everything, to process it entirely, to sit and smile upon God’s work. It is entirely my fault, indeed. My schedule this semester has been packed with activity. I have done so many things, yet I feel as if I haven’t actually done anything productive. I’ve been told by a wise man that one can be involved in so many things were one is unable to devote adequate time to any of it. In that case, all the activity is done in vain. There is a verse in Psalm 127 that I read tonight that could apply here.

Unless the LORD builds the house, its builders labor in vain. Unless the LORD watches over the city, the watchmen stand guard in vain. Psalm 127:1

I guess it doesn’t apply directly, but I think it still can apply here. And I know I have written about this before, I do. I suppose it’s a redundant issue in my life. I take on too much in attempts to multitask it all...I’m too busy thinking about all that has to get done. I find myself unable to enjoy any of it. 

I’m not saturating myself in Him. 

What a scary thing it is to be saturated in ministry and lose one’s hunger for the Minister simultaneously.And how does that happen so quickly? One moment, my passion stems from Jesus, and the next, it stems from my success. 

Ministry is merely activity apart from the Minister. 

Praise God that He fulfills that role and not I. That He is sovereign, and I am not. Praise Him that even in my unfaithfulness, His character remains faithful. He doesn’t change like shifting shadows. (James 1:17.) Praise Him.

So, here is a single moment for me to soak up life’s happenings. 

I am blown away at the sudden changes that have occurred in the past couple of months. I am growing to know a God that is more personal and more set-apart than He ever has been to me before. He is inexhaustible and His ways are unfathomable. His faithfulness is literally new every morning. 

I also am convinced that God laughs when people attempt to make plans and surrender their will to His simultaneously. When He said “follow Me,” I think He meant “put to death whatever belongs to [the] earthly nature” (Colossians 3:5). That means when I surrender, I’m giving up my plans. The mind boggling thing in the midst of this is that God brings beauty out of surrender. Those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, He fills. What an odd thing, eh? What a beautiful thing, too.

Lastly, if I happen to have an audience reading this entry at some point, I have a request. Could you pray for me? That my heart will remain soft to His leading and His will; for patience; for a heart of servanthood; for peace. God reminds me that even when He brings beautiful things into my life, He still requires me to rely upon Him and to hope in Him. 

Anyway, it’s time for bed. 5:00am comes way too early....

Ally