Random thoughts.


It's crazy how much I am blessed. It's even more crazy how often I forget this. I wonder how a God who sees me could love me. A God who knows me could desire me. 
And allow me to glimpse Him. 


I'm getting married in 14 days. Never before have I so questioned God's presence. Never before have I so vividly seen Him.


I've seen many opportunities for ministry in others' lives. I've seen growth in them that makes me humbled. 
I see my life as normal and uneventful. But I'm getting married. How could I wonder why spiritual battle is so currently prevalent? 


Diversity in humanity amazes me. Personality. Emotions. Senses. Souls. Our beings scream immortality. Yet we live in a world that is dying. We fight for life. We battle one another for supremacy. We all compete. But we do so on the same playing field. Why do we counter ourselves? 


Isn't it ironic that our fight for success is failure? 


I am fearfully and wonderfully made. But I arrogantly claim a self-made standard of beauty. 


I need Jesus. I need the Church. I can't be independent and simultaneously want to walk with Christ. 
Humility comes in many different forms.
So does pride and arrogance. 


Salvation is such a simple concept. Why do people twist and complicate that which they shouldn't? And when I write "people" I should really replace it with "Allyson Willis."


God is so much greater than present fears and doubts. He knows the hearts of man and sympathizes with the most difficult weakness. When I am weak, He is strength. 


It's weird; I experience freedom when I ask for help. And the more I do this, the more I experience Jesus. 


Thanks for reading my jumble of thought,

Ally