Ok. So I just got back from star gazing out at the lake. While lying there in the silence, I realized something really really cool. I'm more in love with Jesus than I used to be. I was thinking about the last time I actually laid down to soak in His creation.. and figured out, the last time was really last fall. A good six or seven months ago. And from the nights spend gazing up at the sky then compared to tonight spent out there, I'm different. My heart has changed.
That... That is so cool. I mean, leaving me smiling cool.
Just being in His presence... outside in His masterpiece world... It's incredible. And I am left... yeah, I'm pretty much left speechless. I want this delight and hunger for Him to never fade. I pray it doesn't. But increase as time goes on. That I keep giving up people's value to me and let my value and worth stem from Him. That's mainly what I took away from the time out at the lake tonight. The value I have for people, especially those I treasure the most... even if I want them to, they can never amount to the worth that I have in Jesus and the worth He gives. In my bible study with the jr. and high school girls this week, I wrote in my notes that even the best earthly love can't compare to the love found in Jesus. I need to take that into stride as well. I need to keep giving up earthly things. And that's a hard thing to swallow. Because... well. I am very attached to certain things here. Certain items. Certain people. And I don't want to give them up to Him or even worse, lay them at His feet permanently. Eww. That's scary. Worth it? Yes. But definitely scary. If I find my source of worth in Jesus, then the worth and value in people become the added cherry on top. Or... extra dab of whipped cream, for oddballs like me. Just think. If I can be happy and satisfied in Him, then how extremely joyful can I become? And, what burdens would I be free of from not having to try to win people's approval? A LOT. Let me tell you. Also, I would want to pour into people unconditionally because I would never expect for them to return the love. I could love selflessly because my love would stem from Him, not my fallible being. What a life that would be.
Anyway. Those are some thoughts I've been tossing around in my noggin.
Time for sleep. Goodnight, world.
No comments:
Post a Comment