Yeah. It's definitely been a really full week. One of my best friends is now officially married. I spent the eve of her wedding in the ER. And I had to say goodbye to some really close special friends. I have so many mixed emotions right now, and I have a feeling I'm going to spend the rest of this blog blabbing. Bare with me.
It's insane how fast time flies by. Insane. I mean, yesterday was really the first time it has really really hit me that I'm growing up. You wouldn't think at 19 that I would just now realize this.. but it's true, folks. Was it not just yesterday when I learned the Barney theme song? Or memorized the plot in each Jennie B. Jones book? Or stayed up late going on daddy-daughter dates to campus riding on my daddy's shoulders?
Am I no longer in that stage of life? I guess not. Hah. Yeah, it's kind of depressing. Especially because it doesn't just gradually happen. It sneaks up on you and then suddenly decides to pounce. And like that, you enter the world of paying for expenses, life-changing decision makings, and soon-to-be things like.. oh, I don't know. Marriage? Kids? GREY HAIRS?!
No.
I'm putting that stuff off for a while. At least the last three. I'm definitely a lil kiddo at heart. And I find that ok. I actually find that good. God wants us to come to Him like lil kiddos, recklessly and with full abandonment. I think He was the one who gave me this childlike spirit and energy. And I'm chill with it. ...as long as even in the midst of expenses paying and life-changing decision makings, I can find time to jump in puddles.. or color.. Or even just laugh at my mistakes and dorkish ways. I suppose if I can live in that happy medium, I will be just fine.
But seriously, though? My best friend is FREAKING MARRIED. How the heck is that supposed to feel?! I dunno. Weird? I think that'll have to suffice.
Ok, so my lovely drugs are kicking in. I'm going to head to la la land. Maybe Neverland. That way I won't ever have to grow up. ;)
Peace,
Ally
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