Do not be anxious....

I definitely am not feeling the motivation tonight. I think my mind is everywhere but right here. Today, on the other hand, I was actually productive. I spent the morning with Jesus and work out machines at the Y. I also read a chunk of a couple books throughout the day, worked, and went to class. As soon as I realized how much homework I had to do, though, my mind immediately shut itself down. At least, in the academic arena. 
In the last couple of days, God has pointed out a lot of things to me. I'm still processing it, but I think that more puzzle pieces are finally starting to come together in life. Perhaps it is because I'm merely sitting and listening to Him speak. Or perhaps it's because another person echos what God is showing me. The fact that Aaron is seeking Him wholly and coming to the same conclusions that I am.... well, it does two things: 1. it shows me I'm not going insane, and 2. it confirms what God has laid on my heart. 
Does that cease to scare me? No. It makes me less prone to fear, though. It makes me more trustful, too. 
But it's odd. I'm more content in knowing that God is holding this situation, but I'm also more restless. I felt it a little ironic when my pastor mentioned Philippians 4 in the sermon on Sunday, Do not be anxious about anything, because that was the exact feelings I struggle with. I am anxious for the future, as much as I'd like to say I'm not. Could it be a good anxious, though? Maybe. Well, actually, I'm certain that it is. But I need to remember where to place my focus. Not on the future, but on the Creator of it. 


I understand that my posts have been rather short the last few months. Thanks for reading, nevertheless. If you will, pray for me. Pray that the desires of my heart will be His and not mine. 

And my God will meet all your needs according to his glorious riches in Christ Jesus. 

Philippians 4:19

Ally