Rest in the Shadow of the Cross.

A friend of mine gave this to me tonight. 


When I say..."I am a Christian"
I'm not shouting "I am saved"
I'm whispering I was lost
That is why I chose this way.


When I say... "I am a Christian"
I don't speak of this with pride
I'm confessing that I stumble
And need someone to be my guide.


When I say...."I am a Christian"
I'm not trying to be strong
I'm professing that I'm weak 
And pray for strength to carry on.


When I say..."I am a Christian"
I'm not bragging of success
I'm admitting I have failed
And cannot ever pay the debt.


When I say..."I am a Christian"
I'm not claiming to be perfect
My flaws are visible 
But God believes I'm worth it.


When I say..."I am Christian"
I still feel the sting of pain
I have my share of heartaches
Which is why I speak His name.


When I say..."I am Christian"
I do not wish to be judge
I have no authority
I only know I'm loved.


Do you ever question whether or not you're walking in God's will truly? I've kind of been there the last few days. I have such confidence in Him and yet am almost fearful that my confidence is in vain. It's funny, though. When I actually seclude myself from distractions, I am lost in His peace and my fears are absent. I am reminded in His presence of my position. I am nothing, just as the poem above states. I can't brag of my success, I have to admit that I have failed. I must admit this openly and honestly. God declares that I must be transparent before Him or else His power in me is void. 
It is when I remind myself of my position that I can be reminded of His work in me. I can delight in the fact that I am being held, even as I question things. My favorite line of the poem above is, "I have no authority; I only know I'm loved." 
If that truth could resonate in every believer's heart continuously, would the Church be different? I wonder if we would be vastly different than we are now. I know that I personally would be. I couldn't help but to be. 


Unfortunately, I need to bust a move off to my pile of homework. If you're wondering or doubting God's will, my one prayer would be that you merely eliminate the distractions and sit at your Daddy's feet. Be reminded that you're being held, that God is sufficient. He created your heart, He knows it's desires. 
Anyway, off to conquer the world,
Ally